Halfway through writing an entry for today, I found myself lost for words and thoughts. I knew what I needed to write but just couldn't seem to find a way to connect my thoughts and translate them into an entry. All I know is that I have to write today. I need to write today because I committed myself to writing this blog daily. In previous days I was able to find a magic moment when I felt that all my thoughts were in sync and words to capture these thoughts were at the ready. Today is that kind of day when I literally could not come up with any idea on what to write or how to write an entry even after deciding on a topic. There are tons of material out there that I could write about but I am unable to pick any that catches my fancy. I also cannot seem to find any magic moment as before when even if I didn't know what I was writing, somehow, somewhere along writing it, the material transforms itself into something that I am confident to post. Today, it's just not happening.
I spent last weekend at my braintwin's house. I wanted to stick to my schedule and write for this blog. However, as chance would have it, I could not write anything. There were a lot of factors that played into it. Let's just say I was distracted. I tried to open my laptop but just couldn't find it in me to write anything. So I ended up with writing nothing over the course of 3 days. My braintwin told me not to force it if I didn't feel like it because it denigrates the material that I will end up posting as I would have written something out of obligation which doesn't exactly exhibit creativity. Once you start doing things out of obligation, you will end up with half-baked results she said. It is best to do things that inspire you she said, not the ones that you feel you need to out of a self-imposed obligation. Makes sense I guess. However, I couldn't let that become a scapegoat for not writing as it has always been in the past. I found myself giving up on a lot of things before because I could not commit to anything or stick to it long enough to see them through. This time I have decided to do things differently. To stick to writing even when magic moments are missing because life is interesting that way. It may seem ho-hum at first but it suddenly surprises you with a gift at the end of the road as long as you keep on walking the path.
So here I am continuing on the path that I have decided to take. I am reminding myself that whether or not magic moments present themselves, each day is already a miracle on its own. No one is certain that there would be another day to wake up to. We sleep at night without any guarantee that we will still wake up tomorrow. When we do wake up, it is a gift. Each day is an opportunity to make things "better" than the ones before because you have been given another chance to marvel at the beauty of the world and experience all its wonders contained in the chasm between good and bad. It is a realization that while I am concerning myself with magic moments of inspiration, others somewhere in the world are literally fighting for their lives, trying to find magic moments too; not to inspire them to do something recreational like I am doing - but fighting to live another day. They may either be caught in war, plagued with thirst or famine, and even those who are deathly sick that another day of life gives them more than enough cause for joy.
There are a lot of things that we may take for granted just because we are so caught up with our pursuit of the things that we don't have. Most of the time we fail at appreciating the abundance that has already been given to us. Negative bias. Perhaps now is the time for me to capitalize on the things that I have actually been given and stop whining about those that I don't have. Because honestly, someone, somewhere out there has it worst than me. So, rather than waiting for magic moments to come to me, I am deciding to create these magic moments for myself by taking every opportunity as a possibility to leave an imprint on this life that I can look back on and be proud of. It need not be grand or great like the works of famous people. It just needs to be honest and sincere.
And just like that, I found my magic moment today. This letter would stand as a testament to that.
So cheers to my braintwin for it was she who told me last weekend to write about not knowing what to write. Apparently, like everything else in life, you need to take the first step in order to get to your destination. In this case, all I needed was to write that I knew not what to write about. Beauty in irony.
xoxo
QB
I spent last weekend at my braintwin's house. I wanted to stick to my schedule and write for this blog. However, as chance would have it, I could not write anything. There were a lot of factors that played into it. Let's just say I was distracted. I tried to open my laptop but just couldn't find it in me to write anything. So I ended up with writing nothing over the course of 3 days. My braintwin told me not to force it if I didn't feel like it because it denigrates the material that I will end up posting as I would have written something out of obligation which doesn't exactly exhibit creativity. Once you start doing things out of obligation, you will end up with half-baked results she said. It is best to do things that inspire you she said, not the ones that you feel you need to out of a self-imposed obligation. Makes sense I guess. However, I couldn't let that become a scapegoat for not writing as it has always been in the past. I found myself giving up on a lot of things before because I could not commit to anything or stick to it long enough to see them through. This time I have decided to do things differently. To stick to writing even when magic moments are missing because life is interesting that way. It may seem ho-hum at first but it suddenly surprises you with a gift at the end of the road as long as you keep on walking the path.
So here I am continuing on the path that I have decided to take. I am reminding myself that whether or not magic moments present themselves, each day is already a miracle on its own. No one is certain that there would be another day to wake up to. We sleep at night without any guarantee that we will still wake up tomorrow. When we do wake up, it is a gift. Each day is an opportunity to make things "better" than the ones before because you have been given another chance to marvel at the beauty of the world and experience all its wonders contained in the chasm between good and bad. It is a realization that while I am concerning myself with magic moments of inspiration, others somewhere in the world are literally fighting for their lives, trying to find magic moments too; not to inspire them to do something recreational like I am doing - but fighting to live another day. They may either be caught in war, plagued with thirst or famine, and even those who are deathly sick that another day of life gives them more than enough cause for joy.
There are a lot of things that we may take for granted just because we are so caught up with our pursuit of the things that we don't have. Most of the time we fail at appreciating the abundance that has already been given to us. Negative bias. Perhaps now is the time for me to capitalize on the things that I have actually been given and stop whining about those that I don't have. Because honestly, someone, somewhere out there has it worst than me. So, rather than waiting for magic moments to come to me, I am deciding to create these magic moments for myself by taking every opportunity as a possibility to leave an imprint on this life that I can look back on and be proud of. It need not be grand or great like the works of famous people. It just needs to be honest and sincere.
And just like that, I found my magic moment today. This letter would stand as a testament to that.
So cheers to my braintwin for it was she who told me last weekend to write about not knowing what to write. Apparently, like everything else in life, you need to take the first step in order to get to your destination. In this case, all I needed was to write that I knew not what to write about. Beauty in irony.
xoxo
QB
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